I am here to tell you my story. I am Finn, that isn’t the name in my passport. Finn is the name I choose for myself because it is what feels right. The name on my passport, that person isn’t, me. She is a person who society expects her to be but I am not her.

From a young age, I knew I wasn’t like the other girls. I just never was. I never wore or had any dresses and all my friends were boys. When puberty hit, everything got so much worse. My body was turning into something I never wanted it to be. I struggled with depression, anxiety and body identity disorder aka I’m transgender, which came with gender dysphoria. Gender dysphoria is when a person’s gender identity doesn’t match up with their physical gender. You feel like the opposite gender that you were born as. Gender dysphoria can cause severe distress, anxiety and depression.

When someone calls me, she or her, I can’t help that I get upset because I don’t feel female. To make one thing clear: being transgender doesn’t make you mentally ill. I believe coming out is the best thing I have ever done. I felt like if I had to spend the rest of my life as a female on this planet. That there wasn’t a point for me to continue living. Luckily, I came out and I am still standing here. If it wasn’t for me coming out, I don’t think I would be hereby. I came out because for me it’s important to be my true self and not live a lie as someone who I’m not. The best way to deal with gender dysphoria, is to emotionally and psychologically change myself to who I really am, changing my name and going on hormone blockers and later crossover hormones and oppressions

Being transgender isn’t a choice but being happy is.

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I am Finn, and that isn’t going to change.